Week 28: Gosh, I'm pregnant!

Being a fairly typical Cancerian, I'm somewhat averse to change. I realise change is important to enable us to move on with our lives, however, I'm just dreadful at it. I'm so bad that it's taken me this long to accept that Eastenders is on 4 times a week now...

And it's taken me 7 months to accept that I'm actually going to have a baby! This may sound strange but I've been kind of ignoring the situation for the last 28 weeks. This wasn't because I didn't want to be pregnant, but because it's such a life-changing event, I couldn't even get my head around it.

I am the girl who can never make up her mind where she wants to go out... or what she wants to wear in the morning... or what she wants to eat at lunch. So you can see how confounding it was for me to find out I was carrying a small human being.

The first 3 months are secretive anyway - nobody knows so I just didn't feel very pregnant. Plus, I spent most of my energy trying not to throw up my breakfast/lunch/dinner.

The next 3 months have been a strange nowhere land. Obviously I started to look more pregnant, and people knew, but it just seemed so far away. There was also part of me that pretended I wasn't pregnant and kept on working those long hours, going out with friends, going to the gym, getting up early, going to be late... I suppose I just wanted to be me - not some pregnant woman. I've seen friends of mine defined by their pregnancy or their children and I've always been determined not to let that happen to me.

So I'm not sure what's happened between week 27 and week 28 but suddenly I've realised I've pregnant and what's more, am embracing it! I'm enjoying taking my foot off the work pedal, loving being pampered by my hubby and relishing in the fact that if I want to spend a day watching TV, I can!

I'm also getting my head around the fact that there is going to be a new addition to our family - and instead of worrying about how I'm going to juggle everything, I'm just looking forward to meeting our son. Eek! That makes it feel even more real now... bring it on!