Week 27: Labour Worries

Why did I do it? I knew from the trailers that it would scare the bejesus out of me, but for some strange reason, last night I tuned into the new documentary series, One Born Every Minute.

Cue one very restless night. Don't get me wrong, I know that childbirth isn't easy but I didn't really need to see it in such glorious technicolour. Actually, the colour was fine, it was the sounds that sent chills through my spine. Banshee shrills, grunts, whining - it's all so well, undignified.

I have a high pain threshold but I think there's something about the undignity of it all that's upsetting me the most. I'm very shy and the thought of having to be so gutteral in front of strangers, makes me feel slightly nauseous.

So, even though I'd really quite like the baby to stay where he is, I've decided to tackle this by booking a hypno birthing course. Yes, I could have spent that money on stuff for the baby but I figure if this course will rid me of the fear, it will be worth every penny.

I know after nublet is born, I'll probably forget the pain, and think it was all worth it, but it's the anticipation that's killing me now so if anyone has any great tips on how to deal with labour fear, I'd love to hear them!