Week 30: The week where I enjoy a stay in hospital...

Until this week, my health had been relatively good. Yes, I've had morning sickness. Yes, I've had bad pelvic pain, but overall I feel quite lucky. I keep hearing all these stories about people picking up loads of bug due to low immune system but I've actually been healthier then I normally would've been! Must have been something to do with early nights and no alcohol. However, this week unfortunately I was so sick I ended up in hospital.

I had a vomitting bug, and due to throwing up non-stop for 7 hours, I was admitted into hospital and put on a drip straight away as dehydration can cause premature labour. The baby bump was also rigged up to monitor Pedro's heartbeat (that's our new name for the bump!) to ensure he wasn't distressed. Thankfully, he seems to be a chilled out dude and was hardly affected.

I wish the same could've been said for me. So many feelings went through my head - guilt, sadness, loneliness. The latter was the most suprising as until now I've just been getting on with things and enjoying myself as much as I can, but as I lay alone in my hospital bed, I realised that I was truly on my own in this pregnancy lark. As much as friends, family and partners can say they understand what you're going through, they don't - how could they? The relationship you have with your bump is special and unique to you.

Until this scary 2-day stay in hospital, I've just been carrying on like normal but something has clicked and I don't think I can now. On one level, this means really slowing down on the physical front, but on another level, it means I'm not going to take any bullshit any more. I can't be bothered playing mind games at work or with friends or with the husband.

All I want to do for the final 2 months is to concentrate on making sure little Pedro is safe and healthy. It will probably be a shock for most of my acquaintances as I'm so maleable and game to go along with what everyone wants, but for the first time in my life, it will be no more. I'm going to do everything for this baby now and if some people get their noses put out of joint, so be it - after all, blood truly is thicker than water...